Saturday, November 21, 2009

hun manushya chun..

Since last few days things have been going in in my mind which I finally could take out in form of the following words...

હું શ્વાસ લઉં છું... હું મનુષ્ય છું
જન્મતાંજ રડુ છું.... કે રડતાં જન્મું છું.!..
નિષ્કપટ પ્રેમમાં ઊછરૂં છું. . . સંસ્કાર પામું છું
કપટ ને વિક્રુતિઓ ક્યાંથી મેળવું છું?
હું ક્રુતજ્ઞી છું
હું ક્રુતઘ્ની છું
હું સંતોષ છું
હું ઈર્ષા છું
હું ગીતા નો અભ્યાસી છું. . . પોતના નેજ હણું છું
હું સ્વર છું... સંગીત છું
હું પ્રેરણા છું... હતાશા છું
હું માંદગી છું... દવા છું
હુંજ બંદગી છું... દુઆ છું
હું અનૂભવ છું
હું સમાનાર્થ છું... વિરોધ છું
હું ક્રાંતિ છું... ચળવળ છું
હું કર્તા છું... વિનાશ છું
હું સર્જના છું... સ્મશાન છું
હું ગુન્હેગાર છું... મૂનસીબ છું
હું સુઃખ પામવા....દુઃખી છું
હું ધિક્કાર નો મહાસાગર છું
હું લાગણિઓ ની ઓટ છું
હું અપાર પ્રેમ છું
હું કરૂણા છું
હું દેવ છું... હુંજ વેદ છું. .
ઈચ્છું તો હુંજ ભગવાન છું. . .
પણ એક પ્રશ્ર્ન રોજ સતાવે છે. . . .
હું શ્વાસ લઉં છું . . હું મનુષ્ય છું ??

Monday, August 31, 2009

A simple hi....a small smile...difficult?

My wife Kruti often takes our 8 month old princess to the park and then sits on a bench just beside the main rod of our complex. She usually sits there in the morning at @ 0830 and on evenings @ 0600. Since its that time when everyone is either rushing to offices or coming back..or going for shopping/play etc....many cars zoom by and my daughter enjoys that.
Kruti often tells me about how the Americans (white and colored alike) smile, wave a hi or just acknowledge....irrespective of whether they know us or not ot if they like our presence or not...But when it comes to desis, they stare and zoom by...the ones who know us wave or say hi...but others just pass by as if ignoring....not that it makes any difference, but the same desis when pass by an American would wish them....
Isn't it discrimination within our own people for no apparent reason? Isn't it time we learnt a lesson or two on basic human etiquette from these firangs?

India wins Nehru Cup.....

...hello!!!! Its not some university Cricket tournament...its an international football tournament. India beat the much much higher ranked Syria 5-4 after a penalty shootout.
In a country obsessed by Cricket (I am also a cricket enthusiast) this was a welcome news...for once reported as headlines..even though for 15 minutes.
High time that we realise the potential we have in sports ther than Cricket. At least other sportspersons do take pride in playing for their country and not JUST earn in the name of playing for the country!!!!!

Nehru cup was not played for 10 years because of lack of sponsorship....hope someone will dole out some change for the most popular sport on the planet...so that it can flousih with new rich Indian talent...Amen!

I am not concerned that you have fallen..I am concerned that you arise

I have been resisting (successfully) from writing anything on the ongoing BJP

troubles, but the way everything is going I wanted to put my thoughts in

perspective...probably I can reflect back on them once the storm has died down.

2004....NDA loses the general elections to everybody's surprise..even to the

surprise of Congress. It was a loss..yes, but was manageable as the loss in seats

was not too much when compared to the results in 1999. It was mainly the loss of TDP and other regional allies that hurt the most. Vajpayee was an able leader and I'll curse my luck till I live that we did not have him as the PM again in 2004.
BJP coul not cope up with this defeat...
2009....Another general election and BJP lost it miserably. I am saying BJP and not NDA as this time BJP was the main loser. Its allies ofcourse lost but the percentage lost by BJP was higher.
The hidden volcanoes (or should I say the self-created-bloated-eog-volcanoes) erupted. Before I move further I must admit that it was wrong for Advani to continue as the Opposition leader. he should have taken responsibility and made way to the next generation. It would have sent ht right message to party cadres and would have also pressurised Rajnath to step down.
Ok...Jaswant and Jinnah, Yashwant and his big mouth etc....all this has happened. Jaswant was expelled..I regard him high for his abilities both as external affairs minister and finance minister. But his Jinnah book was not meant for Indian politics. The political(and read Media here too) cannot separate personal academic intersts and politics. He had to go and he was expelled...what caused the furore was that he was expelled by a leadership that itself had little moral authority to do so.
Yashwant has been 1 of the most opportune politicians...BJP would do good to rid him too...I would still keep Arun Shourie as he is an intelligent and well read man and has interest of the country and the party.

After all the hue and cry came Mohanrao Bhagwat. Mediamen pounced on him at a press conference in New Delhi. What role does RSS play here...what was RSS doing for BJP...like a pack on hungry wolves they pounced on him..but to his credit he didn't give anything to them and nor to the congress.

whatever happens now...I just want to keep Bhagwat in the picture. BJP leadership should have done what Bhagwat did all these years. The main problem with BJP is that there are too many mouths that want to speak and theya re eager to say what the media wants...gullible to an extent. Why not have designated people who are calm, composed and give out things only that they want to....let them assume whatever they want but dont blurt out whatever....

I am 100% confident that BJP is going to come out of this mess...leaner and stronger..with a more focussed leadership. Let Rajnath go into the shadows...let Advani guide as a mentor..he has been good at it and ma sure he will still be able to do it..after all I find his contribution bigger than Vajpayee's when it comes to building the party. Let someone like Jaitley, Swaraj, Shourie, Khanduri, Raman Singh, Shivraj, Modi take up the leadership....BUT with a goal to REbuild the party..
India needs a very strong opposition...specially with Congress ruling the country in a dangerous fashion. 5 years gives enough time to refocus...take each assembly election as the stepping stone...exepriment in the assembly elections...choose the right allies...play it alone in states where allies are not reliable...BJP has paid the price more because of the follies of its allies than because of itself (excpet in 2009). Build  base....in fact the base is already there...just bring confidence back into them. Let India be stronger with a strong party.

 

Note:

Subject line quote by Abraham Lincoln

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My doll crawls now...

7+ months....can you believe it? Its been more than 7 months and my doll has learnt to crawl. She is teaching me to be happy in so very small things...and I am so glad that it is happening.

Last Saturday Kashti suddenly started to crawl. Kruti and I were overjoyed, we would just make her crawl again and again..try capture videos and photos..it was an amazing feeling.

Yes, I do feel sometimes that she is growing so fast and tell her "beta, dont grow up so fast..."..yes thats selfish of me, but can't help it.

Next step....when my baby starts taking baby steps... :)

When friends(?) turn conspirators

"Dost dost na raha...." remember that evergreen betrayal glorifying bollywood song..Raj Kapoor singing it with a sad face looking into the eyes of Rajendra Kumar?
Its been a few months now since I've been playing the Raj Kapoor and I can't even sing..unlike that Raj sand it for Vyjantimala while I've no issues on that part.

Perhaps I was never made out for the corporate world..should have been a teacher or a farmer or something else, but not in the corporate world. The way corporate friends hit u from behind....real hard....appendix pain would also be ashamed...This hit from behind doesnt even have a cure...try all you want to prevent but this virus is non-preventable.

Oh yeah..am back to whining..I know. Time I become really assertive...no..no...time I become really aggressive and just hit back..won't hit from the back for sure...but at least let me prepare myself to rid my life of "corporate friends"...life will be a lot better....Can't complain if I don't do something about it. Isn't it?

Monday, July 27, 2009

Kashti learns to sit!

Wow...what a weekend. Kashti started sitting on her own on saturday (25th July 2009). Kruti and I were so happy....proud at the same time. Last few days, we have been waiting to see Kashti try to crawl, sit..do something new. There were signs that she was trying to crawl but then suddenly she sprand this surprise...as if telling me "Don't think I'll do what you want/expect"..

Little joys...these....watching her 2 bunny teeth when she smiles...watching her sit again and again as if she is so proud of her achivement. Its amazing this feeling of watching you kid grow! Sometime you want to watch her grow every minute, sometimes you want the process to be slow so that you can enjoy everything again and again...its a dilemma...but then one can't fight progress, human or otherwise....best is to enjoy the progress and be happy.

Next step...wath her crawl happily .....and then walk.....and run...its gonna be fun for sure!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Happy with the progress..

Kashti is no longer used to sleeping only on our shoulders. Now she sleeps on the bed..of course she just doesn't doze off, she feels uneasy and cribs a little but then sleeps and yes..she needs someone in the room while she is trying to sleep....still it is ok as now we can do our chores while she sleeps on her own.
Great progress....

another thing I am happy about is that we started giving her stage 1 carrot and she loved it. It was fun watching her eat the first few spoons....she was like....what are you guys giving me? But then she ate it...almost the full cup. Today when I left from lunch, Kruti started with feeding her Peas and she was taking that nicely too..amd really glad and happy.

Hope her general growth continues and she remains a happy baby...I know she will. Touchwood........

Monday, June 15, 2009

Happy sad....

It was a happy...sad..proud...all in one feeling after I received Mummy's mail today.
Flashback....the background first....the Gandhinagar location of the company I work for celebrated its 10 years anniversary on 4th June. I've been with the lcoaiton for 8 years. I was asked by a senior to prepare a speech for the occasion that mentions about what I've seen as far as the struggle for the location and projects is concerned in my tenure. I jotted down all I felt, got the draft approved, rcorded in a speech and sent across. It was played during the celebration function and it was a proud thing for me.
Ihappened to mention this to Papa-Mummy and Pranav and Mummy asked me to send the speech to her which I did...

....back to today...
I got a mail from Mummy that they heard the speech taht I had sent. She wrote that Papa didn't utter a single word and in fact had tears in his eyes.
It might be a small thing that I gave a speech..even I didn't consider it big...but look at the way parents see it. For him it was like "my son has grown up..he has achieved so much...etc." They are so selfless.....even I got a little senti on reading that mail. I mean I know how my parents have suffered because of that torturous period that I gave them...when I didn't study well despite all their attempts....a period when I didn't care at all about my future...I did not know then how much stressed my parents were because of me.
And now when I completed my Masters on merit...scored good marks...got a good job and am doing reasonably well...they are so happy..so proud...Parents are so selfless.... I don't claim at all taht I have achieved everything...that I am a big shot etc....but my parents are happy that I am settled and am happy and that's what matters at the end of the day...at least for me!

My parents are doing such great job...they are helping people...they are active in things they like...they are still more energetic than I can even dream of...they are more enthusiastic in learning new things than even people of my age....God bless them and give them a long and healthy life. And I pray god give us 2 brothers the wisdom to take care of them and keep them happy always.....

can't write more.......

Sunday, June 14, 2009

....ચાલશે (Gujarati)

નથી હવે કોઈ દવાની અસર,
દુઆ છે બસ....ચાલશે

તૂટ્યું ભલે ને દિલ આ,
જીવન તૂટક તૂટક....ચાલશે

મિત્ર ને મિત્રતા, ભ્રમ ને ભ્રામક્તા
ભલે આ બધું હો એકજ....ચાલશે

સંબંધો ના સાગર ની ઓટ માં
મળે એકાદ સ્વજન....ચાલશે

બંદગી થી ના મળ્યો ખુદા,ઠીક છે,
જનાજે ચડીને મળશે....ચાલશે

મતલબ થી ભરેલ દુનિયામાં
સ્વ નો અર્થ પામું, એટલો સ્વાર્થ....ચાલશે