Once again...I get inspired by someone (this time Pranav) to be regular at blogging. Once again I hope I continue doing it.... :)
Its been a few anxious/happy/topsy-turvy days these last few ones....I am more and more confused within myself. Confused for what/ I don't know completely. Its been like that for sometime now. I look for reasons to get worried even when there are none. Some times its my nature, sometimes career, sometimes weight and sometimes its what a person MIGHT be thinking about me. All these keep me so occupied and at such times I forget to enjoy and play with my kid.
Today I decided to note down my strengths and weaknesses so that I can prove to myself that I am worth it...every pound of myself :). as is my nature, let me begin with the Negatives:
1. Obesity
2. Short Temper
3. Worrisome nature
4. Procrastination
5. Thinking too much about things that are not under my control
Positives:
1. Family
2. A wonderful, cute and the most beautful doll in Kashti
3. A wonderful and 100% supportive wife
4. Well to do
5. Good work to do
6. Helpful nature
Of the negatives, Worrisome Nature, Procrastination and thinking @ what others are thinking @ me - these 3 are a direct reulst of obesity I feel. I accept people irrespective of their outer appearance or caste/creed etc...so why should I thikn others won't do the same? Probably I think too much and then keep getting confused.
The more I remain negative the more negative things happen....or at least thats what I percieve. This has been a very old problem of mine...Papa-Mummy, Pranav, Manish, Kanumama, Motabhai, Meenal everyone has tried and lately its Kruti. But then I get normal for a few days and again something starts moving in my mind and its to square one. Its probably I, MYSELF who has to work on getting better..others can help but cant do it for me...
Lets see how things go...I am going to the gym regularly and exercising...this back pain that I hae had for more than a week now is preventing me from doing rigoros workout...I really hope the pain vanishes and I can workout more severely....Amen!
